In the middle of writing our road trip, I felt the need to take a break. I will resume writing about our trip down the road, but for now I decided to rethink sharing it and just savoring it for a little while. I have been planning and living on a schedule for some time. Always running from one thing to another but never living in the moment.
I am a planner to my core, and I am not sure anything can take that out of me. I have spent the last year always in the future. Homeschooling became such a CHORE (like scrubbing the toilets kind of chore). I couldn’t put my finger on why everything was becoming so lifeless when my calendar said I have an amazing life. I was at the point of living frazzled and becoming depressed. Daily I was asking myself “What the heck is going on?”.
The 4th state on our road trip route turned the lightbulb on. I had my nose deep into the road atlas, following our route on the GPS, planning stops, meals, and things to see, when my entire family started oohing and aweing. By the time I looked up I had missed something amazing. I felt like crap. Here I thought I was this awesome road tripper planning things and I was missing everything.
It was that moment I decided to be in the moment. That included putting the blog down and just living my life. It’s part of why I am still not fully back. I believe God used this road trip to teach me a few things. I still have a TON to learn, but I am taking this lesson eyes wide open and applying it in other areas.
I certainly won’t be writing every day or every week. Not for a while anyways. I have spent the last few months savoring the time with my girls, reading some good books and checking out curriculum for the next year. The girls are growing like little weeds. My oldest has changed so much in the last 3 years, it is almost like she is a little adult now. She is an amazing young lady. So, for now I am taking this time to cherish life.